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You have nothing to worry about. Who knows you might be a Bishop or in the Stake Presidency in a few years.

No sane person WANTs to be called as a SP or Bishop or RSP:  be careful, you will scare him off.  Lots of members would love to be in the position of few obligations and expectations, AND fully square with God.  

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I feel like the biggest fool. Here I am, 51 years old. I am a managing attorney. I was an officer in the Army. I am used to making decisions and sticking with them. I do not waffle. Yet, here I am. I am pulled so much to the LDS Church, but so many issues keep me away. I love the present LDS Church, but have many issues with the past. I love what appears to be current doctrines (or most of them), but have problems with older doctrines (or what they appear to be).

All I want to do is be where God wants me. Some days it almost seems like it is tearing me apart.

Not sure why I posted this. I expect folks will mock me, but there it is

Why would anyone mock you? Could you pick one or two things you are dealing with so we might address them one at a time.
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This was three years ago almost…it would be nice to have an update on what was chosen and how it turned out.

Posted

Good to know.  It is always a bit troubling when posters just disappear.  Always hoping it is because good things have happened to them and not bad but in most cases, especially with aliases used, how in the world is one going to find out?

  • 5 months later...
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Odd things are certainly happening.  My wife, also not LDS, was just transferred by her company to live in SLC.  I will remain in Texas, as we believe this move will only last a couple of years.  She has an apartment near downtown.  In another bit of interesting developments, on her last flight back to Texas, she gave her seat for someone and received a voucher for a flight.  This allows me to come to see her.  We decided I would come for our anniversary (April 1st- we thought it appropriate).  So, I am coming for that weekend following the first.  I just found out.....that is GC Weekend.

 

I wonder if my mission is having a reunion?  

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I feel like the biggest fool. Here I am, 51 years old. I am a managing attorney. I was an officer in the Army. I am used to making decisions and sticking with them. I do not waffle. Yet, here I am. I am pulled so much to the LDS Church, but so many issues keep me away. I love the present LDS Church, but have many issues with the past. I love what appears to be current doctrines (or most of them), but have problems with older doctrines (or what they appear to be).

All I want to do is be where God wants me. Some days it almost seems like it is tearing me apart.

Not sure why I posted this. I expect folks will mock me, but there it is

I know that some people will say that you should follow the spirit..this is okay as long as you don't ignore gut feelings and instincts in regard to your own truth and knowledge.  I imagine you could still be in this wonderful community even with your problems with it's past...but it changes ya know..it changes with the times anyway so our values and moral grounds can BE with or withhout the church.  That community no matter what should stick by you..if they are true to you.

  • 3 weeks later...
Posted

Am I a sock puppet for SteveDallas?

 

No

 

Am I him?  Yes.

 

I truly forgot I was here 3 years ago under a different name.

Interesting.

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Interesting.

 

You may be skeptical if you've never done that, but I have.  I have multiple profiles on multiple dating sites ... in keeping with my Dissociative Identity Disorder.  Even stranger than that, I've had women come up to me whom, to the best of my knowledge, I've never met and do not know and tell me they enjoyed the recent evening they spent in my company.  (Must've been one of my "alters.") :D

 

Seriously, though: I have attempted to register at more than one site (both dating sites and others), only to realize I previously had done so.  If you haven't, I daresay you are in the minority among people who spend a lot of time on line.

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I feel like the biggest fool. Here I am, 51 years old. I am a managing attorney. I was an officer in the Army. I am used to making decisions and sticking with them. I do not waffle. Yet, here I am. I am pulled so much to the LDS Church, but so many issues keep me away. I love the present LDS Church, but have many issues with the past. I love what appears to be current doctrines (or most of them), but have problems with older doctrines (or what they appear to be).

All I want to do is be where God wants me. Some days it almost seems like it is tearing me apart.

Not sure why I posted this. I expect folks will mock me, but there it is

I have heard this many times...but they have no,problem with those whom God called as Prophets in the OT. When it comes to polygamy, God identifies himself by name with only three men, Abraham, Isaac and Jacob, all polygamist. God only calls flawed men...it is all he can find.
Posted (edited)

You may be skeptical if you've never done that, but I have.  I have multiple profiles on multiple dating sites ... in keeping with my Dissociative Identity Disorder.  Even stranger than that, I've had women come up to me whom, to the best of my knowledge, I've never met and do not know and tell me they enjoyed the recent evening they spent in my company.  (Must've been one of my "alters.") :D

 

Seriously, though: I have attempted to register at more than one site (both dating sites and others), only to realize I previously had done so.  If you haven't, I daresay you are in the minority among people who spend a lot of time on line.

My comment about it being interesting has nothing to do with doubt or being skeptical. I just thought it was an interesting admission looking at were he was vs were he is now.

 

That to me is quite interesting. Esp since I have been talking to him for a few weeks now.

Edited by Mola Ram Suda Ram
Posted (edited)

Naughty….

 

We could get together a bunch of us and have a Skype version of the first discussion…there are enough RMs and mothers who helped prepared their children even if they didn't go themselves on the board… :)

 

I've got the manual on my shelf in fact from when I helped my nephew prepare (he lived down the street and his dad was leaning critic at the time so he wanted to hear the defenses/information from me that might be needed.  We had lots of fun, his dad seemed to enjoy it to when he came along. 

 

They would be sure to show up next time if they knew we'd preempt them if they didn't.   :P

Edited by calmoriah
Posted (edited)

I have an appointment with the missionaries tonight

 

they did not show :sad:

Although you might encounter a certain amount of opposition from the Adversary to the prospect of your reconnecting with the faith of your youth, don't despair.  Perhaps the missionaries scheduled you when they did in anticipation that another item on their schedule wouldn't pan out, only to have that appointment unexpectedly kept.  (If so, the fact that missionaries are so busy is a good thing, yes? :D) Or, if the explanation is much simpler, and if, instead, the miscommunication results from young people being scatterbrained, as they sometimes are wont to do, then it's a good opportunity for you to develop (or to display) charity.  I was a reasonably good missionary, but that doesn't mean I never cringe at some things I did as a 19-through-21-year-old.    In any event, Elder Holland once said:

 

Once there has been illumination, beware the temptation to retreat from a good thing.  If it was right when you prayed about it and trusted it and lived for it, it is right now.  Don't give in when the pressure mounts.  Certainly don't give in to that being who is bent on the destruction of your happiness. Stay the course and see the beauty of life unfold for you.

 

I commend the entire address to you:

 

http://speeches.byu.edu/?act=viewitem&id=795.

 

I wish you well. :)

Edited by Kenngo1969
Posted (edited)

Its all good.  Very disappointed.  I left work early to be on time.  I had to prepare myself for this and it all felt very deflating.  I had, in essence, prepared myself for that visit for about 5-6 years and for them not to show was very disappointing.

 

But....the truth does not change.

Edited by CountryBoy
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Its all good.  Very disappointed.  I left work early to be on time.  I had to prepare myself for this and it all felt very deflating.  I had, in essence, prepared myself for that visit for about 5-6 years and for them not to show was very disappointing.

 

But....the truth does not change.

 

How frustrating!  I hope they have a really REALLY good excuse.   <_<

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Yeah, if they don't we must think of an appropriate punishment.....something equivalent to a good slapdown (verbal not physical)

You tell them for us, CB, you have a number of online sisters looking out for you who are not the least bit happy and who are keeping a very close eye on things.

I remember the time I planned to go to the temple with some dear friends only to discover my card had expired the day before....talk about deflating (it had been a long time since I had managed to go, I had arranged my life for a week around it). And I only had myself to blame...it is much worse when it is someone else's fault and they leave you hanging not knowing what was going on.

Posted

I was really wanting the process to start. Now, not sure what to do.....I feel like I need to get started already

Reschedule and start again!

If the gospel is true had the missionaries shown up, then it's still true after they don't.

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