Feel like looking up to Frida Kahlo sometimes and I'm learning Spanish and went to school in Mexico

[MatteoManospherian]

I am 17, half-Mexican, and have autism, I'm from Las Vegas, I have a german surname thanks to my father who is American, I feared for my life sometimes because I have had enemies in my life accuse me of being a hateful person when I used to look fat and they called me a bad person, this led to me changing and going to the gym to eat healthy and become more buff and do martial arts and Krav Maga, and going to Spanish language school in Mexico and now learning Spanish to a intermediate degree and wanting to master it by going to language school again in Guatemala, and becoming a better person.

I always felt similar, when I read about Frida Kahlo, a Mexican artist, I felt sadness in my eyes and thought her quotes were beautiful and I always saw her similar looks to me after I shaved my beard and looked myself in the mirror, it was like looking at a distant relative, I always want to keep believing God and although I have trouble with masturbation habits because of my autism, I kept believing him and I will also believe in this great woman who overcame many things. and had a great German father who looked after her in Mexico and it's beautiful capital.

I want God to guide me through this journey, he already has by encouraging me to quit unhealthy habits and unethical pornography and pornographic videos, although I still masturbate sometimes and trying to improve or avoid it more, I notice my change in attitude towards women and now can look up to many great minds who can guide me, I now have God and this woman to guide me through my hardest times, I feel accomplished every time I overcome the adversary in treating people with disrepect, Satan is the reason why these evil arts and divisions are created to keep us divided, not men or women, I hope this message guides all.

[rpn]

I have to say that I rather doubt that the masturbation issue has anything to do with your autism ---- it is a challenge for lots of people, and your labeling it that way likely interferes with your choosing not to do it any more.

And you are correct that porn damages the way we think and treat other children of God (not to mention the specific harms involved in its actual production).

Good on you for seeking to overcome those obstacles to the live your Heavenly Parents and Savior want for you, planned for you to have.