cherryTreez

My dad is awesome. My mom had dementia. He stepped into the role of full time care giver to her but also mom and dad for all his kids. It was so hard to have my mom there physically but not there mentally. That man is a rockstar.

I suffered from secondary . I lost pregnancy after pregnancy. Then one stuck. She was our miracle. The baby we prayed for and tried for years to have. Then she died. I was broken. I doubted everything. I didnt know what was what. The only thing that I knew was that my loving children needed me. I met grieving parents who blamed God. They thought he made their child die. I couldnt understand that. I believe he allowed them to die but he didnt make them die. He allows nature to do what nature does. Can He interfere and can things? Yes. But He isn't up there making bad things happen to us. He allows bad things to happen and then can make good things happen after bad things. I will be broken for my life because I will always be missing one of my children. I am forever changed because of each of my children. Wether or not I get to raise them. They changed me. My Faith is that we were sent here to learn, to be challenged, we have to prove to ourselves that we can do things. I remember my dad holding me as I sobbed after my daughter's death. He held me and let me talk when I needed too, he was quiet when I needed that as well. He cried but stood by in quiet support. I think Our Heavenly Father is very much the same. He let's us lead. He stands by and watches us. He waits for us to ask for help and helps when He can.

I have extremely high risk pregnancies. I remember being asked who they should save if it came to that while in labor with my first. My son was the only thing I could think of. I would never have said me. I also am a mother who left the hospital with empty arms and got to pick out a casket for my daughter. I would have given my next breath for her to have lived. The only reason that I didnt go crazy with my grief was my 2 living children. I wanted too, I wanted to die from the pain of losing her. It is a pain that you cannot know unless you have been there. And if you don't know that pain, then you are incredibly lucky. I am the child that was not supposed to be born. Doctors told my mom that she would die and any baby would die or be a miscarriage. Obviously that was wrong. We were both fine. I strongly disagree with killing a baby for the actions of their parents. Two forms of birth control, or maybe dont have sex if you are not willing to have a baby.

2 forms of birth control at all times. And no a baby shouldn't due because of its parents choices.