Need prayers.

[Dario_M]

Guys. I'm having a problem. Normaly i would be sleeping right now. But not this night. I'm kinda in big problems. And need your prayers. A lot. I think i'm even in danger. You guys know me... i'm not a troll.... this message is serious. I just fear for my life. For everything. I saw my dad today. After a whole month. Finaly because i miss my family. I didn't spoke to my mom for a long time. While we live so close. I miss her. I did say that i live in Charneca right? After my grandma kicked me out i've moved here. Can you guys pray for me. That everything will be allright at some point. Can you guys please do that for me? 

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[Calm]

Definitely will. Hope you can find peace for your heart or be given direction in how to keep yourself safe. Be careful and not impulsive if you can in responding.  
 

Do you know of a safe place to go if it becomes clear you are not safe?  Perhaps call your bishop in case he knows resources you could go to, like a good, safe shelter?

[Dario_M]

Thank you Calm. I feel so desperate. I've been crying a lot for the last 2 years. 

Tomorrow i will be a zombie i'm afrait. After no sleep. Tomorrow i will cry my eyes out i think. 

You know guys..the worst thing about a serious problem is....when there is no solution. 

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[Dario_M]

7 minutes ago, Calm said:

Definitely will. Hope you can find peace for your heart or be given direction in how to keep yourself safe. Be careful and not impulsive if you can in responding.  
 

To other people you mean? Yes....if feel trapped. I'm scared. 

7 minutes ago, Calm said:

Do you know of a safe place to go if it becomes clear you are not safe?  Perhaps call your bishop in case he knows resources you could go to, like a good, safe shelter?

I need to stay in Charneca. Otherwise i end up on the street. I can't emagine that my parents would let that happen though. I mean...they are my parents. 

You know... the only people who are nice to me on the moment....are the ones in the church. ..and my parents. 

[Dario_M]

Thank you MrShorty. Oh man....i feel panic.  😔

[Buckeye]

Dario, 

You’ve got my prayers. I feel panic too quite often. It’s a life-long struggle that peaks at the worst times it seems. But the sun always comes up and good times return.  Some of my kids get panic attacks like me. I’ve felt big time guilt like I cursed them with bad anxiety genes, but I’m so, so glad they’re in my life. They’re amazing people who make the world better. 

You are too. Your life matters to so many people. Reach out to those you trust. Reach out to your Father in Heaven. He’s real and cares deeply about you, especially right now. 
 

 

[Dario_M]

Thank you Pyeraus. 🙏

[Pyreaux]

Okay. Here is my medicine;

When you feel panic and desperation, pray; go somewhere in private, get a pillow, or what helps you be comfortable praying position and pray out loud, cry, but don't finish, don't get up, don't stop praying, list things you are grateful for, then list all the sins you can remember, then list all your problems, ask all your questions. It may take almost an hour or so. Not to put God in a box exactly, just saying from experience. The more you put in, the more you get. Don't give up until something clicks, clarity and peace where there was stress and anxiety. A feeling that everything will be okay. I've done this, and I've known others who've done it crying out to God in the shower in the fetal position, but I'd pick a better place.

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[Dario_M]

Thank you Buckeye. 🙏

[Dario_M]

1 minute ago, Pyreaux said:

Okay. Here is my medicine;

When you feel panic and desperation, pray; go somewhere in private, get a pillow, or what helps you be comfortable praying position and pray out loud, cry, but don't finish, don't get up, don't stop praying, list things you are grateful for, then list all the sins you can remember, then list all your problems, ask all your questions. It may take almost an hour or so. Not to put God in a box exactly, just saying from experience. The more you put in, the more you get. Don't until something clicks, clarity and peace where there was stress and anxiety. A feeling that everything will be okay. I've done this, and I've known others who've done it crying out to God in the shower in the fetal position, but I'd pick a better place. place.

That's really good advice. 🙏 You're so right. Tomorrow i will do that. Here it's 4:34 now.  It's actually allready tomorrow. 

[Dario_M]

13 minutes ago, Buckeye said:

Dario, 

You’ve got my prayers. I feel panic too quite often. It’s a life-long struggle that peaks at the worst times it seems. But the sun always comes up and good times return.  Some of my kids get panic attacks like me. I’ve felt big time guilt like I cursed them with bad anxiety genes, but I’m so, so glad they’re in my life. They’re amazing people who make the world better. 

You are too. Your life matters to so many people. Reach out to those you trust. Reach out to your Father in Heaven. He’s real and cares deeply about you, especially right now. 
 

 

 

Om my...i accedentely disliked your comment. But i've changed it ! You have a heart now.

Thank you so much for your prayers. 

I've read your message a few times. I'm about to cry. 

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[Dario_M]

I'm crying. Big time. 

[bluebell]

Prayers!  I’m sorry things are so hard right now. 

[Dario_M]

Thank you Bluebell. I just.... wish thinks would be turned out differentely in life. And i wish it was sunday allready.

Btw .... i just haven't slept at all. I feel horible. But praying is what i need to do. I just need to pray a little while longer. 

[Tacenda]

1 hour ago, Dario_M said:

Guys. I'm having a problem. Normaly i would be sleeping right now. But not this night. I'm kinda in big problems. And need your prayers. A lot. I think i'm even in danger. You guys know me... i'm not a troll.... this message is serious. I just fear for my life. For everything. I saw my dad today. After a whole month. Finaly because i miss my family. I didn't spoke to my mom for a long time. While we live so close. I miss her. I did say that i live in Charneca right? After my grandma kicked me out i've moved here. Can you guys pray for me. That everything will be allright at some point. Can you guys please do that for me? 

I am not the best at praying like I use to but will for sure Dario, you're one of our kindest posters and you deserve to be safe, loved and cared for too. 

May I share a story? My brother has battled alcoholism and his liver is shot and he may have maybe a year to live. Well he failed once again and drove straight to the liquor store and then called his wife and said how sorry he was because he drank a fifth of vodka. Well his wife kicks him out immediately if he drinks, so after he begged to come home and sleep it off, his wife so f- you and so he's been living in some dive place renting a room and continued drinking up a storm for the last three or so weeks and I've been trying to help him. He'd been throwing up blood and his health going down hill fast. Well, he called me the other night and told me he'd said a prayer for the first time in I don't know how long, and he asked God to help him and that he wanted to end his life. Well shortly after, his wife called and then his boss that had fired him, he's a Glazier. His wife wants to let him come home and his boss said he needs him at work. Both had pretty much given up on him. So he's been going to work and he's home and very happy. Tonight we all hung out at a local place that gives free concerts and it was such a relief to not see him drinking himself to death alone. He's always been mostly a non believer in a God, but no longer!

So I hope mine and all of our prayers are heard and that you're safe. ❤️

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[Dario_M]

2 minutes ago, Tacenda said:

I am not the best at praying like I use to but will for sure Dario, you're one of our kindest posters and you deserve to be safe, loved and cared for too. 

May I share a story? My brother has battled alcoholism and his liver is shot and may have maybe a year to live, well he failed once again and drove straight to the liquor store and then called his wife and said how sorry he was because he drank a fifth of vodka. Well his wife kicks him out immediately if he drinks, so after he begged to come home and sleep it off, his wife so f- you and he so he's been living in some dive place renting a room and continued drinking up a storm for the last three or so weeks and I've been trying to help him. He'd been throwing up blood and his health going down hill fast. Well, he called me the other night and told me he'd said a prayer for the first time in I don't know how long, and he asked God to help him and that he wanted to end his life. Well shortly after, his wife called and then his boss that had fired him, he's a Glazier. His wife wants to let him come home and his boss said he needs him at work. Both had pretty much given up on him. So he's been going to work and he's home and very happy, tonight we all hung out at a local place that gives free concerts and it was such a relief to not see him drinking himself death alone. He's always been mostly a non believer in a God, but no longer!

So I hope mine and all of our prayers are heard and that you're safe. ❤️

I'm so thankfull for you guys. All of you have made this horible night a little bit less horible. ❤  Yes i wanna be loved. So desperately. I think about my younger years. When my parents cared for me. Everyday. I wish i would appreciate it more. But i didn't. How foolish right?? Now that's all gone. My life in the Netherlands is gona. Instead i'm now here. In a house. And had no sleep. Together with people who are crazy in my opinion. This night we had a huge fight.

 

Beautiful storie. Tears a lot on the moment. But because of you guys i can manage it. I'm sure that my parents haven't give up on me. Why would they you know? I'm their child. I'm their son. 

[Tacenda]

5 minutes ago, Dario_M said:

I'm so thankfull for you guys. All of you have made this horible night a little bit less horible. ❤  Yes i wanna be loved. So desperately. I think about my younger years. When my parents cared for me. Everyday. I wish i would appreciate it more. But i didn't. How foolish right?? Now that's all gone. My life in the Netherlands is gona. Instead i'm now here. In a house. And had no sleep. Together with people who are crazy in my opinion. This night we had a huge fight.

 

Beautiful storie. Tears a lot on the moment. But because of you guys i can manage it. I'm sure that my parents haven't give up on me. Why would they you know? I'm their child. I'm their son. 

You're loved from a far here on the board. I hope you can get back home with your family and first thing if possible is to get some sleep!

[Dario_M]

SeekingUnderstanding thank you also for your upvote. 💙

[Dario_M]

6 minutes ago, Tacenda said:

You're loved from a far here on the board. I hope you can get back home with your family and first thing if possible is to get some sleep!

Oh Tacenda. That word only "sleep." I just wanna sleep so badly. But that's not gonna happen for the rest of this morning. It's still dark though. I probably will get some sleep further in the day. 

Thank you so much. For making this horible night beareble. 

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[manol]

I love you Dario. In my awkward, old-straight-guy kinda way.  You are not alone, you are never alone. 

(A quick breathing technique that helps with the physical side of panic:  TWO inhales through your nose, the first one kinda fast and deep and then immediately a second short inhale to expand your lungs a bit more, then a long slow exhale through pursed lips.  This is kinda of like the way a person breathes right after they have been crying.)

(And if you feel like it, you can say to yourself, "Where once was fear, let there be love.")

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[Dario_M]

10 minutes ago, manol said:

I love you Dario. In my awkward, old-straight-guy kinda way.  You are not alone, you are never alone. 

And also thank you as well.💚 You guys are a gift on the moment. Because.....this night was something. It's getting light now btw. It's morning, a new day begins. And allready there are 2 crazy people here from this house barbequing on the veranda. The smell is .....not good.🤮 I'm sitting in the garden. It happends above me

 I just can't believe this. But it's really happening though. 

Thank you for your message anyway.

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[Dario_M]

21 minutes ago, manol said:

 

(A quick breathing technique that helps with the physical side of panic:  TWO inhales through your nose, the first one kinda fast and deep and then immediately a second short inhale to expand your lungs a bit more, then a long slow exhale through pursed lips.  This is kinda of like the way a person breathes right after they have been crying.)

(And if you feel like it, you can say to yourself, "Where once was fear, let there be love.")

This fear i have is because people can be so nasty. Outside of the church you know especially.

You know.....  there is such a cute kitten here that's comforting me all the time while i'm sitting outside? He knows i'm upset. How can animals understand so much about human feelings? He's my only friend in this house. 😸

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[Dario_M]

There's so much going on in this house. I hope you guys believe me. Everything that i'm discribing here is really happening. 

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[DonBradley]

Dario,

I'm concerned. I just prayed for you and will continue to pray that you will safe, both physically and emotionally.

Help me understand what's going on. I only visit the board occasionally, and I don't know the back story.

Are you physically safe right now? Your grandmother kicked you out, so where are you living now? Does your family know your concerns about your safety?

Who do you have in Charneca that you might be able to turn to?

If you want to chat and you're on Facebook, you can message me: https://www.facebook.com/onandagus1

Don

[DonBradley]

Who were you fighting with in the house you're at? Was it a physical fight? Do you think your parents would you let temporarily stay with them? 

Sorry for peppering you with questions--I just want to understand so we can make sure you're okay!!

Don