Your Most Heart Felt Goal.

[EllenMaksoud]

Young people have lots of goals. Some have so many goals that they get confused and think they just have irrational longings. As we get older, toward the end of our lives, the number of our goals declines until, perhaps near the end we have just one or two. It would be informative to hear about those goals closest to your hearts, whether it be to own a brand new Audi R-8, a new house full of babies, or to make lots of money. I will start:

 

Everything has paled around me, now seeing that pleasure from anything is fleeting and can be gone in an instant. "All is vanity ..."  There is one final goal for me, though others can surface from time to time; to have an opportunity to be pleasing to Heavenly Father through some act or though or word, but all these things are transient and if we hesitate sometimes for an instant; miss the prompting somehow, the chance is gone like a lamp that ran out of oil.

 

My most fervent goal this summer is to find a place in perhaps Eastern Oregon that has an unobstructed sky all round, and on a clear, windless late night sit outside my tent in my lawn chair and gaze at the heavens; watching the rotation of the earth as is evidenced by the travel of the Milky Way around the North Star. Playing on my car sterio, as loud as the speakers can take, would be "Spem In Alium" by Thomas Tallis one last time. It will feel as if I am suspended in the vault of heaven listening to the Angels and Saints praise our creator. What a privilege.

 

It pains me that the piece has achieved notoriety through the media in less than wholesome ways, though I do think that some could gain more insight into trauma and abuse issues through reading the books, were that their desire.

[Bill “Papa” Lee]

I am a very soul searching person, the curse of the heart of a poet. Click on my Gwen, and all poems by William E Lee, are mine. But I also collect poems by those who soul search. Go there and see if one of mine or others speaks to your soul.

This is not self promotion, I just understand what if is like to live on mountains and in valleys and I have many by other authors there that may help.

My goal remains the same always, to die with my testimony in tact, my family intact, my heart in tact...and to one day write something that will change another's life.

God bless you my sister..

Bill (Pa Pa) Lee

[The Nehor]

[EllenMaksoud]

I am a very soul searching person, the curse of the heart of a poet. Click on my Gwen, and all poems by William E Lee, are mine. But I also collect poems by those who soul search. Go there and see if one of mine or others speaks to your soul.

This is not self promotion, I just understand what if is like to live on mountains and in valleys and I have many by other authors there that may help.

My goal remains the same always, to die with my testimony in tact, my family intact, my heart in tact...and to one day write something that will change another's life.

God bless you my sister..

Bill (Pa Pa) Lee

Please do not worry that I will end my own life. Meeting Heavenly Father in person is a goal that I hope we all share. I will look you up. Thank you.

 

Gwen

[EllenMaksoud]

I am a very soul searching person, the curse of the heart of a poet. Click on my Gwen, and all poems by William E Lee, are mine. But I also collect poems by those who soul search. Go there and see if one of mine or others speaks to your soul.

This is not self promotion, I just understand what if is like to live on mountains and in valleys and I have many by other authors there that may help.

My goal remains the same always, to die with my testimony in tact, my family intact, my heart in tact...and to one day write something that will change another's life.

God bless you my sister..

Bill (Pa Pa) Lee

Hey, sorry I can't find you with the usual Google search. Can you give me any clues?

[Bill “Papa” Lee]

Hey, sorry I can't find you with the usual Google search. Can you give me any clues?

Click on link at bottom of this reply, entitled "See My Poetry Blog". That is my blog with my poems and others. Edited March 8, 2014 by Bill “Papa” Lee

[Garden Girl]

This topic gives me pause... because the years are flying by and I am facing what I expect to be a very short time left in my life... At 73, certain health issues dictate that I probably have perhaps 5 years.  It gives me a mixed feeling of anticipation and some apprehension.  When I think about moving through the veil, in some ways I'm sooo ready to do so... in other ways I get nervous.

My goal... my prayer... is that I will be able to keep my brain and intellect clear and active whatever time I have left so that I can control my life... make my decisions... stand independent since I'm alone.  It really is something to be alone... most times I'm perfectly fine with it, and love my life.  Other times it is an emptiness... a hollow feeling... It is during these times that only prayer eases my heart and mind and even comes close to filling the void within me.

 

Goals?  Several... mainly to do with my art work.  And, to reach out to others less fortunate and do what I can to live a charitable life in time and means.  And of course, to endure to the end...

 

GG... sigh...

 

 

[EllenMaksoud]

This topic gives me pause... because the years are flying by and I am facing what I expect to be a very short time left in my life... At 73, certain health issues dictate that I probably have perhaps 5 years.  It gives me a mixed feeling of anticipation and some apprehension.  When I think about moving through the veil, in some ways I'm sooo ready to do so... in other ways I get nervous.

My goal... my prayer... is that I will be able to keep my brain and intellect clear and active whatever time I have left so that I can control my life... make my decisions... stand independent since I'm alone.  It really is something to be alone... most times I'm perfectly fine with it, and love my life.  Other times it is an emptiness... a hollow feeling... It is during these times that only prayer eases my heart and mind and even comes close to filling the void within me.

 

Goals?  Several... mainly to do with my art work.  And, to reach out to others less fortunate and do what I can to live a charitable life in time and means.  And of course, to endure to the end...

 

GG... sigh...

It is amazing to me how much others appreciate encouragement and reassurance. Sometimes people who I think have it all together and not a worry in the world reveal cares and concerns that I though not possible. And, I find that helping others often eases my own pain. What a bonus.

[EllenMaksoud]

I am a very soul searching person, the curse of the heart of a poet. Click on my Gwen, and all poems by William E Lee, are mine. But I also collect poems by those who soul search. Go there and see if one of mine or others speaks to your soul.

This is not self promotion, I just understand what if is like to live on mountains and in valleys and I have many by other authors there that may help.

My goal remains the same always, to die with my testimony in tact, my family intact, my heart in tact...and to one day write something that will change another's life.

God bless you my sister..

Bill (Pa Pa) Lee

I missed your comment about living in the mountains and valleys, and must say that you have hit the nail on the head. It is called Bipolar II and most of us manage without medication. It is a great comfort to have those around that will tolerate the changes in mood with good humor.  Thank you.

[rpn]

Gwen, I recommend the sand dunes of Moses Lake Washington as the place to go for the experience you describe.  (There are lots of places around there where you can get the big sky experience.)

[Garden Girl]

Gwen, I recommend the sand dunes of Moses Lake Washington as the place to go for the experience you describe.  (There are lots of places around there where you can get the big sky experience.)

 

My "big sky experience" came while camping at Bear Lake, Utah... I've always lived where for one reason or another the sky is usually obscured... in So Cal (smog), in San Fran (fog/coastal overcast, etc)... and now the Oregon Coast (beach overcast/clouds).  So when my hubby and I were at Bear Lake it was like Whoa!!  Awesome... overpowering.... humbling.... to clearly see the vastness of our universe...

I can get a similar feeling as I walk on the beach... the power of the waves has that effect... in fact, I can't walk on the beach and not pray.  And our beaches are have very few people except right in front of the hotels... so the waves crashing, wide sands and the open sky make one feel very small and humble.

 

GG

[EllenMaksoud]

Gwen, I recommend the sand dunes of Moses Lake Washington as the place to go for the experience you describe.  (There are lots of places around there where you can get the big sky experience.)

Thank you. I will have a look. I am planning on two weeks, so have time.  I just found a place North of Enterprise, Oregon, 43 miles from there called Red Hill Lookout. Still checking to see if camping is permitted, but I do not think there will be an issue, especially with no camp fire.  Now I have to find a nice wide field telescope.

[Bill “Papa” Lee]

My "big sky experience" came while camping at Bear Lake, Utah... I've always lived where for one reason or another the sky is usually obscured... in So Cal (smog), in San Fran (fog/coastal overcast, etc)... and now the Oregon Coast (beach overcast/clouds).  So when my hubby and I were at Bear Lake it was like Whoa!!  Awesome... overpowering.... humbling.... to clearly see the vastness of our universe...

I can get a similar feeling as I walk on the beach... the power of the waves has that effect... in fact, I can't walk on the beach and not pray.  And our beaches are have very few people except right in front of the hotels... so the waves crashing, wide sands and the open sky make one feel very small and humble.

 

GG

My big sky was the first time I drove across Wyoming...just wow! One day we drove for 7 hours, see a storm develop, rage and die, and we never reached it.

[EllenMaksoud]

My big sky was the first time I drove across Wyoming...just wow! One day we drove for 7 hours, see a storm develop, rage and die, and we never reached it.

Yes, some of these storms should convince an athiest that there is a God. In 2010 we drove Portland, Or to Painesville, OHIO. I am getting pretty old so limited our travel to 500 miles a day. The US is big, really big. In 1968, we drove Fairbanks to Portland (5 days) and then Portland to Lawton, OK. I barely remember any of it.

[altersteve]

I want to become a filmmaker, concert promoter, author, and fitness instructor. I'm passionate about all those things but I'm not sure which one I'm most passionate about, so I figured what the heck, let's try all of them. And I'm already getting started -- one of my best friends is pursuing an acting career and wants me to direct a movie with him, I'm working on putting on my first concert, I hope to have a book I'm co-writing with another best friend on the shelves by the end of 2015, and I'm going to start working towards getting my personal trainer certification. And I want to organize a charity foundation of some kind. I just want to dedicate my life to helping people smile a bit more. I think the world needs that.

 

But most importantly, my most heartfelt goal is to be a husband and father. That would be the highest calling for me.

Edited March 9, 2014 by altersteve

[EllenMaksoud]

I want to become a filmmaker, concert promoter, author, and fitness instructor. I'm passionate about all those things but I'm not sure which one I'm most passionate about, so I figured what the heck, let's try all of them. And I'm already getting started -- one of my best friends is pursuing an acting career and wants me to direct a movie with him, I'm working on putting on my first concert, I hope to have a book I'm co-writing with another best friend on the shelves by the end of 2015, and I'm going to start working towards getting my personal trainer certification. And I want to organize a charity foundation of some kind. I just want to dedicate my life to helping people smile a bit more. I think the world needs that.

 

But most importantly, my most heartfelt goal is to be a husband and father. That would be the highest calling for me.

Being a good husband takes a lot of patience.  I am sorry, we women get emotional and irritating at times, though we try very hard to please. The calm, steadying hand of a faithful husband is rare, at least it was for me.

 

I have been toying with the idea of making a Youtube movie. I wrote a story that just has my heart. I love it, and I think it is funny, off beat and should capture hearts. I have not decided if it should be stop motion clay mation, or drawn art on paper.  I do not know if I will ever get to it.

[altersteve]

Well, patience has never really been my strongest suit. So I think marriage will be a good lesson in that and many other things for me.

[VideoGameJunkie]

My most heart felt goal is being sealed in the temple to my family and to my spouse.

[JLHPROF]

My goal is to learn to do what God wants me to do and stop questioning and worrying so much about what I want to do, what my family wants me to do, what society wants me to do, etc.

I know that if I could just learn to bend my will to God that I would have far fewer worries, at least in the long run.

[EllenMaksoud]

My goal is to learn to do what God wants me to do and stop questioning and worrying so much about what I want to do, what my family wants me to do, what society wants me to do, etc.

I know that if I could just learn to bend my will to God that I would have far fewer worries, at least in the long run.

Would you like a response to that?

[MelodyMP3]

Ellen...

Oregon is beautiful. I grew up there, in the valley. You'll have to go further east, in the drier flat lands to get your panoramic view...but I think a view from Mary's Peak, near Corvallis, OR, is a better view than in the eastern desert. This is actually where my husband proposed to me 20 years ago! It's a mile long trek up a gravelly road, once you drive to the parking area near the top, but the walk is worth it on a clear day. Go at night, and the star gazing is amazing, but also, when you look downward all around you can see the lights of several surrounding cities! Go when it's cloudy, and you'll feel like you're on top of the clouds...walking on air. Bring your big jacket. It's windy.

[MelodyMP3]

I am a very soul searching person, the curse of the heart of a poet....Bill (Pa Pa) Lee

 

So...that's where I got the soul searching qualities...what an epiphany! lol

You're poetry is deep, Pa Pa Lee...thanks for sharing...especially liked the one about the three doors.

May I share one of mine?

 

VICTORIOUS

 

VIGILANTLY GUARD YOUR HEARTS FROM SIN AND FEAR AND DOUBT.

INSURRECTION, QUICKLY CATCH AND QUICKLY USHER OUT.

COMBAT IMMORALITY. RENEW THE WAYWARD MIND.

TRIBULATION’S SURE TO COME AND SURE TO TEST MANKIND.

OBSTICLES WILL TRIP THE ONE ADVANCING WITHOUT SIGHT.

RESIST THE DEVIL AND HIS CHARMS, THEN WATCH THE SNAKE TAKE FLIGHT.

INNOCENCE AND TRUTH PREVAIL WHERE SELFISHNESS IS CHAINED.

OBEDIENCE CURBS CONSEQUENCE AND FREEDOM IS OBTAINED.

UNWAV’RING MAY YOUR ‘LEGIANCE BE TO GOD, AND CHRIST HIS SON.

SANCTIFIED BE, WITH LOYALTY, AND SERVE THE HOLY ONE.

 

 

WRITTEN BY MELODY PATE

4/07

[Garden Girl]

Melody...

I really liked your "Victorious"... thank you for sharing.

Yes, Pa Pa is a wonderful poet.

 

GG

[savedbygrace]

This topic gives me pause... because the years are flying by and I am facing what I expect to be a very short time left in my life... At 73, certain health issues dictate that I probably have perhaps 5 years.  It gives me a mixed feeling of anticipation and some apprehension.  When I think about moving through the veil, in some ways I'm sooo ready to do so... in other ways I get nervous.

My goal... my prayer... is that I will be able to keep my brain and intellect clear and active whatever time I have left so that I can control my life... make my decisions... stand independent since I'm alone.  It really is something to be alone... most times I'm perfectly fine with it, and love my life.  Other times it is an emptiness... a hollow feeling... It is during these times that only prayer eases my heart and mind and even comes close to filling the void within me.

 

Goals?  Several... mainly to do with my art work.  And, to reach out to others less fortunate and do what I can to live a charitable life in time and means.  And of course, to endure to the end...

 

GG... sigh...

You sound like a lovely lady