Everyone has a breaking point. What they do when they reach that point is a witness of their character.
Abraham was commanded to slay his sole son. I guarantee you there was nothing else in existence that would have been as great a trial for him.
For others of us, other issues arise which perform the same function. I have personally defeated a couple. I have chosen wickedness in the face of others, to my eternal shame.
I feel that, in Ben's response, the power of a demonstrated contradiction is not appreciated.
It does not help to say "others don't have this problem." The person with the problem has this problem, and that is sufficient for them.
Thank you for saying that. Writing this topic I had hoped to have help from others who had experienced this, rather 98% of people shrug it off, think that I am not looking at this the right way, and the problem is with me. Not much help at all. I am not alone, yet here I have felt I was in seeing these difficulties. I am trying really hard to take each of these issues and try to find a way to reconcile them. I am not an anti mormon. I am an active faithful latter-day saint. who while having had spiritual experiences can not put my heart into something where the facts (as I see them) lead me to think that there are way too many mental hurdles to leap to make it fit. Yet I want nothing more then for the pegs to all fit in their holes.... at least enough to move forward. IT is not as simple to me as I have had spiritual experiences withing the realm of mormonism therefore the conclusion is that Mormonism is true I Know God loves me and that is enough for him to draw me closer to him in any realm or context.